Love that will not betray

In love with Jesus my King. Believer in beauty. Lover of people.

Therefore, the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore He exalts Himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are those who wait for Him. For a people shall dwell in Zion, in Jerusalem; you shall weep no more. He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry. As soon as He hears it, He answers you. And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your Teacher will not hide Himself anymore, but your eyes shall see your Teacher.

—Isaiah 30:18-20

I am not a big wedding gal by any means. But that does not explain or excuse my outright bitterness towards the numerous couples I am friends with getting engaged this fall. (It’s at 5 couples in the past week, right now) Just saying.  Regardless, I have been bitter not because I am alone but because I feel pressured. As though, despite my placement in life, I am at an age where I should be dating my future partner and preparing for marriage. When that isn’t at all where the Lord has me. I don’t want to be there. Comparison is the thief of all joy, and that is true in this situation as well. Anyway, I was complaining to Him about the engagements and my broken heart when He showed me this verse. “And I will betroth you to Me forever. I will betroth you to Me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love and in mercy. I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. And you shall know your Lord.” Hosea 2:19-20 Talk about overwhelmed. I am going to be married, whether the marriage that is growing in my heart now in preparation for the day it is complete or an earthly and temporary one; marriage is something that I will not miss out on. And how beautiful is the one I am guaranteed to receive with my Lord. He is my husband and He sees me as stunning, He is enthralled by my beauty…literally (psalm 45:11) He honors and loves me, uplifts and shines upon me. The wedding day that I am living for is beyond comparison and cannot be taken by any thieves. It is the utmost joy. I can’t wait. Thanks to my good friend, Kyle Bomar, affirming me today, reminding me that I am outrageously gorgeous but above all, the Lord can’t take His eyes off of me. And He is even more excited for our wedding day. He has it all in His hands.  Let this be a reminder to you out there, especially women. You are His. You are insanely beautiful to Him and He is enthralled by you. You captivate Him. He knows every curve and smile, each hair and eyelash. He desires you above all else. Turn to Him, walk in His ways, and extend the radiating Light you hold.

I am not a big wedding gal by any means. But that does not explain or excuse my outright bitterness towards the numerous couples I am friends with getting engaged this fall. (It’s at 5 couples in the past week, right now) Just saying. 

Regardless, I have been bitter not because I am alone but because I feel pressured. As though, despite my placement in life, I am at an age where I should be dating my future partner and preparing for marriage. When that isn’t at all where the Lord has me. I don’t want to be there.

Comparison is the thief of all joy, and that is true in this situation as well.

Anyway, I was complaining to Him about the engagements and my broken heart when He showed me this verse.

“And I will betroth you to Me forever. I will betroth you to Me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love and in mercy. I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. And you shall know your Lord.” Hosea 2:19-20

Talk about overwhelmed. I am going to be married, whether the marriage that is growing in my heart now in preparation for the day it is complete or an earthly and temporary one; marriage is something that I will not miss out on. And how beautiful is the one I am guaranteed to receive with my Lord. He is my husband and He sees me as stunning, He is enthralled by my beauty…literally (psalm 45:11) He honors and loves me, uplifts and shines upon me. The wedding day that I am living for is beyond comparison and cannot be taken by any thieves. It is the utmost joy. I can’t wait.

Thanks to my good friend, Kyle Bomar, affirming me today, reminding me that I am outrageously gorgeous but above all, the Lord can’t take His eyes off of me. And He is even more excited for our wedding day. He has it all in His hands. 

Let this be a reminder to you out there, especially women. You are His. You are insanely beautiful to Him and He is enthralled by you. You captivate Him. He knows every curve and smile, each hair and eyelash. He desires you above all else. Turn to Him, walk in His ways, and extend the radiating Light you hold.


In the middle of this season of darkness (around October) a girl I hardly knew, a friend of a friend, experienced a word from the Lord as we were worshiping. She wrote it on a piece of paper and handed it to me.  It was God telling her to remind me that He will not let me sink. He gives us certain strengths and particular weaknesses, all contributing to the body that we are, and all working for His good. One of mine is that I never sink. I have been pushed, taken advantage of and neglected. I have been afflicted by mono this semester and continued to run on 5 hours of sleep each night. I have cried more times than I care to admit, I drop to my knees at the end of each day exhausted by the world and my failure to stand. But I always get back up. Not because of me, but because of Him.  He is the anchor to my soul. (Hebrews 6:19) I thought of getting an anchor tattooed on my wrist to remind me of this..but I never did. So, when I stumbled upon this picture it reminded me of that verse, His quiet strength working in my failures, and His promise to never let me sink. It is not about our determination of refusing to sink, but His refusal to allow it. Even if we feel destroyed and at rock bottom, He is holding us up. When I thought, “My foot slips,” Your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up. When the cares of my heart are many, Your consolations cheer my soul. Psalm 94:18-19 I will call to You whenever I am in trouble, and You will answer me. Psalm 86:7

In the middle of this season of darkness (around October) a girl I hardly knew, a friend of a friend, experienced a word from the Lord as we were worshiping. She wrote it on a piece of paper and handed it to me. 

It was God telling her to remind me that He will not let me sink. He gives us certain strengths and particular weaknesses, all contributing to the body that we are, and all working for His good. One of mine is that I never sink. I have been pushed, taken advantage of and neglected. I have been afflicted by mono this semester and continued to run on 5 hours of sleep each night. I have cried more times than I care to admit, I drop to my knees at the end of each day exhausted by the world and my failure to stand. But I always get back up. Not because of me, but because of Him. 

He is the anchor to my soul. (Hebrews 6:19) I thought of getting an anchor tattooed on my wrist to remind me of this..but I never did. So, when I stumbled upon this picture it reminded me of that verse, His quiet strength working in my failures, and His promise to never let me sink.

It is not about our determination of refusing to sink, but His refusal to allow it. Even if we feel destroyed and at rock bottom, He is holding us up.

When I thought, “My foot slips,” Your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up. When the cares of my heart are many, Your consolations cheer my soul.

Psalm 94:18-19

I will call to You whenever I am in trouble, and You will answer me.

Psalm 86:7

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